~jom dgr cerita xbest~

awal plak abes kls ari ni.its raining outside n feel so cozy inside.nk tido sbnrnye tp mcm byk sgt yg di pk kn dlm kepala ni.meh bercerita la hihi.

ari sabtu lps aku g wedding shera(bdk mrsm),ngn c'ah,zana n sorg laki yg dikenalkn oleh my mom tu.itu la 1st time ktrg jmpe.dipendekkn cerita it did not turn out to be as smooth as i hope it shud.mgkn sgt byk bezanya kami.bgs jgk ktrg jmpe awal2.so dat xde la dragging sgt pkenalan yg aku mmg xnk start pon.Tuhan tu maha kaya kn.br aku kenal sape die yg sbnrnye.betapa pemikiran die-ceteknye..betapa perangai die-x as a grown up shud be pon..betapa die..bukan utk aku.

smlm aku kuar ngn jero.mkn kt simply fish..again.huhu.best gak.dh lama xlepak sembang2.rs cam stuffy sgt otak.dh direleasekn lps sembang ngn jero.dat is wat frens for kn.ini la gunanye kawan.berkwn la biar seribu,bercinta biar satu.(even xjmpe lg mn la yg satu tu).1 je yg slack bila jmpe jero ni mstila ingt amir blk.hurm..cane nk ckp kt diri sndri yg sume tu is yesterday's news??cam bebal sgt je hati..

ok dh2.skang ni xde ms nk pk psl hati n perasaan ni.sbb xbwk ke mana pon.exam dh sgt la dkt.aku kena studi n get prepared!!ya allah semoga diberkati la pjlnn jihad nih.(bljr tu slh 1 jihad kn)hee...aminn..mari berusaha!!

~if only..~

if only sume org kt muka bumi ni mcm die.so its gonna be easier for me not to search for him in others.
if only org len tu ade sket je of wat he has,its gonna be easier for me to lie to myself and say yes.
if only org len tu can promise me half of wat u promised me,it wud be much easier for me to tell myself to try to forget u.
if only org len tu leh try to make me laugh n smile juz the way you did,maybe i can stop loving u n wanting u.

if only la kn.org ckp org yg ckp 'if only' ni adlh org yg xbersyukur.btol eh?mungkin jgk.astaghfirullah.syukur dgn ape yg Tuhan dh bg stkt ni.

tp nobody is u.and nobody can be even half like u..nobody.

~defense mechanism~

ari ni sy nk talk about defense mechanism which is an unconscious psychological strategies brought into play to cope with reality and to maintain self image.in simple words nye..it helps the ego cope with anxiety.everybody has their own types or ways of defense mechanism.

for example:

ade sorg bdk nih kena mrh ngn a total stranger for a reason yg bdk ni pon tgh blurr lg was she deserve to be high-pitched-scolded and banged in front of people mcm tu.so slps meminta maaf(as she realized nothing better she cud do at that particular moment),she mcm ade mask-like facies n walk away.rs cam nk diam all d way n pretend like nothing happen instead of everybody else waiting for her emotion to burst out.
wen she blk rumah,she pray n recite some sentence from Quran,she tido n hoping that it was just a nightmare.dlm hati she said,"jgnla i grow up to be a like-her-doctor"

p/s:really wish u are here..

~mengenali seorg bernama lelaki~

menulis sekadar berkongsi.

bebrapa hari lps,mula la bermsg ngn seorg laki yg disuruh berkawan ngn aku oleh maknye.mntk perhatian..org yg suruh berkawan adlh maknye,bukan mak aku jauh skali aku sndri.maka cerita bermula.tgkla gmbr die kt fb,agak boley thn(kata ati aku).meh tgk hatinye sama cam rupenye x.

die mula tanye aku org jenis cemane.jwbla.pastu ditanye ramai kwn laki x?slalu kuar ngn kwn laki g tgk wyg x?ade bf x?kapel bape lama?nape putus?
sbnrnye agak tkejut ngn msg2 tu di hari pertama bermsg.terasa tersgt gopoh.mcm interview pon ade.
tp jujur punye psl,jwb sume bnda tnpe selindung.

slps tu..die senyap..terus..

rs cam nk ckp kt ma.anak ustaz mn la nk pndg anak ma yg perangai ntah hape2 neh.

p/s:hatinye x serupa rupenye.sekian.

~mimpi ke??~

aduhai.mimpi ke nih??too real to be a dream.it was too real that i can still feel it.lg ssh la nk melupakan klu gini.huh.pdn muka.aku jgk yg mntk.bila dh dpt speechless plak.bukan stkt xterkata,nk pengsan pon ade td.hurm..tp jalan blk ngn senyum.shud i say thanx to him??err x kot.huhu..

ckp ngn ma td pon rs cam mimpi.cuma beza die d latter dream is a bad one.like a nightmare.tp xyah la aku nk pk pape.bnda ntah ke mane2 still hanging in d air lg.klu Tuhan dh tetapkn bnda tu yg terbaik maka die akn jd jgk.go wif d flow la.penat rsnye melawan arus nih.sbb in d end aku sungkur jgk.penat xberbaloi.

so biarla.either mimpi 1 or 2 yg bakal jd future,aku terima sumenye.moga ini yg terbaik.utk sume org.