~smile never last forever~

i wonder why do i stay up until dis late at nite...is it only becoz of him??terasa buduh la plak..dh lama feel so stupid n dumb actually..but cannot help it..smpi bila pon xtau la..i hope cpt2 la aku grad tglkn dunia yg penuh pmainan emosi ni..hdpi real life n pndg ke hdpn..
kdg2 i realize dat there is some part of me yg still hoping for sumtin which is beyond possible..n i seriously hate dat part..

erm along dh blk ireland pg td..bulan 10 ni kot die blk lg..utk raya..tp xsure lg katanye..td i called mom..miss her..di saat2 ini..tp xsmpt ckp byk sbb abes kedit..dh topup tp xtepon blk sbb im sure she dh tido..

there is some saying that people who write are people who are lonely..am i??
xla..