apakah??apakah??!!

kepenatan keteramatan..wat a weekend...im so so thrilled..(we are huhu)..anim n along dh blk td..aku n kak elis pegi anta mereka di lcct..flight along blk kb kul 915 mlm..
antara xtvt ktrg- pegi naik muzium kapal(aku sgt suke sbb byr rm3 je n best jgk
naik menara taming sari(byr rm10 for nothing)
pegi spa buat facial(rm55 for 2 hours..how to say ek..i LOVE it huhu)
mkn ikan bakar kt umbai(anim yg teringin sgt ni..but we enjoyed our meal as we turn into monsters haha)
blk chalet tido...
esoknye..
mndi pantai di pagi hari..best gle..
pegi shopping dkt dtrn pahlwn n mahkota parade(agak penuh la tgn kami dgn brg2..n agak ringan la wallet masing2 slps itu haha)
pulang ke rumah ku utk bersihkn diri n terus btolak ke lcct pd pukul 530 lebih kurang

setibanye di lcct kami parking n turun utk mencari sesuap mknn..ramai jgk org di situ time tu n agak bingit rasanye..sdg mcari tmpt mkn tu tetiba kak elis ckp, 'ehhh...'.......lalu aku pon memandang ke arah yg sama..ternmpk 1 figure yg agak2 dlm 10meter jauhnye...i noe him..oh yes of coz i do..NAMIA..tetiba je i feel like the 'bingit' juz now has become silent..n at d same time my heart stops beating..almost 5 seconds..den i can hear my own heart beat..den d noise came back..
aku cam tsedar dr lamunan..terus lambai kt die and beredar(so dat my point of vision will not be fixed on him any longer)terus lps tu aku jd blur..mcm org bodoh je..xtau nk buat ape..

he is d one dat tore my heart apart..into pieces..until a point dat i cant bear it anymore..my heart is paining..so much..he is sumtin dat bayani cant get in her life..its been hurting myself too much since then dat i feel like opening my chest and stich it up,make some quick prayer n make it turn to normal..

wat do i feel now at dis moment------> dunno..i miss him..maybe...
do i love him?? ------> sudah gaharu cendana pula
do i want to forget him ------> been trying very hard..nobody can ever imagine
wat did u do to forget him ------> keep thinking about him every now n then hoping dat i'll get bored one day...(never hapen yet)
so wat r u planning to do now? ------> juz let it be..cant do nthin to make myself any better pon..

on no shoulder Allah put a burden dat she/he cannot bear..

i can still handle dis..make me strong plz dear Allah..ameen..